Thank goodness November is over

Guys, this was a really dark month for me. Not just because the time changed, though that is part of the trouble. Every time I felt like I was recovering my equilibrium, more bad news came down the pike. And on top of that – or perhaps underlying it – there was a pandemic.

Look at me cross-eyed, I will cry. Be nice to me, I will cry. If that is hard for you, think how it feels to be me? Ugh. I don’t like it.

Something good happened? Very exciting! But then multiple bad things happened to match it. I won’t give you the litany of things that happened this month, just know that loved ones were lost or soon will be, and people are sick in hospitals out of state. Hospitals which allow no visitors, even if I could figure out how to do the logistics of the COVID test, the quarantine, sort out safe lodging and eating, the hospital still won’t let me in. So here I sit, making phone calls and trying not to bother the wonderful, wonderful nurses too much.

And yes, I have been knitting, a little bit. And spinning, a little bit. But I have not been as productive as normal, or as I would like to be. Everything just feels like a whole lot of work.

One good thing has come of all of this – I have had closer contact, and better communication, with all of my siblings than I have in ages. We are not all on the same page yet, though I think we will be, but we are talking and listening to each other, and reaching consensus on the things that must be decided now, and consciously deciding what to hold off on deciding, with a plan for taking things up later. It is amazingly good. I hope it lasts. We are sharing the work of communicating with out of state family and the hospital. So glad we can do it.

Anyway…

Thanksgiving – how was yours? Ours was quiet. I cooked a turkey and stuffing and potatoes for us, and made bread for the inevitable (anticipated, actually) turkey sandwiches. We saw one of A’s sisters on the screened porch early that morning, and we saw the other in her backyard on Friday, on our way to a picnic at Mom’s house. My sister and her family also came to the picnic, and we sat out in the chilly wet yard for a couple of hours. Mom provided blankets and chairs, we all brought our own food and sat in our own pods. It was so good to see everyone, even if there were no hugs. My niece E the younger brought her brand new spindle, and a grocery bag overflowing with brightly colored fiber that she got for her birthday a few weeks ago. She happily spun away, and is making loads of interesting yarn.

Now it is December and we are back at work after a week of vacation. Hunkering down and waiting for everything to come around right again. Wondering about Christmas picnics… ? will Mother Nature allow?

11 thoughts on “Thank goodness November is over”

  1. Oh Sarah, I’m so so sorry. I’m sending you a big hug, and I hope that the pain will be bearable soon and that you will be able to continue the communications – it’s so good that you are able to tackle this as a team and not more drama is added to the pile. Try to be good to yourself, you need it! I’ll be keeping my fingers crossed for the Christmas picnic.

  2. I am so so sorry for the rough time you are going through right now. Be gentle with yourself. It’s hard to do in this time, but be gentle with yourself.

  3. Oh no, didn’t realize you were having a real punky November, and I’m glad its over for you too! I also have been crying … for Emma a lot, I miss her!… and that just launches me into a crying jag for the rest of the afternoon . I think almost every day I cry. And some of it is because unlike your lucky, my bro and I have hit a total impasse as never before, and I haven’t seen him in a year. Afraid to see my nieces to not give them hugs, but reading about your visiting your family regardless, now I’ll buck up the courage to make that photo shoot date with them. Thank you ! xx

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