I have 9 more days of working at this job.
I am pretty sure I quit several weeks ago.
This morning my boss told me they are still trying to sort out how to get all my work done, when I am gone. And they think they will hold off on making any permanent moves until the end of January, when they will call me and see what I think.
What I THINK? I think that at the end of January I will be hip deep in organizational details and tax law, and won’t have a moment to think about all the parts of what I do now that have nothing to do with taxes. I think that they are really counting on the fact that I didn’t MEAN to quit.
Which, of course, is true. I tried to get a long leave of absence, sabbatical -like. They thought that was bad for the organization (and likely, they are right.) They said no, I said fine, then I guess I have to quit. I gave them a date. I said I would work part-time doing the taxes, then I would be completely done in April. That I need some serious time off, but that I am open to discussing options IN THE SPRING. Not the end of January. Now they seem to think that might mean writing some grants this winter, or doing some research. I did agree to do the annual report if they can’t get it done any other way as there is a contractual obligation there, and I can use last year’s as a template, work on it at home in my own time and be done with it when finished. I then suggested three people who could do it for them. But that is not the same as writing grants, and it is not ongoing, open-ended. It is not HARD.
They seem to think that by the end of January, I will be rested and ready to return to work. I will let them think that and call, and I will again explain to them that I really don’t even want to think about the future or my job or anything until at least a month after tax season. More like two. I am tired, burned out, and cranky with it.
Yesterday A and I were watching a sappy movie, in which the heroine has boyfriend who sits on the couch and plays video games all day while she works. He ignores her when she gets home from work. A said to me “That happens once, and I am out of here.”
Ut-oh. Note to self – if you sit on the couch and knit all day, make sure that you at least put the breakfast dishes in the dishwasher first. And pay attention when she gets home.
I am looking forward to having time to putter away with long to-do lists and nothing that MUST get done in a certain time frame. I am looking forward to having that darned pool up and full of water when summer gets here. I am looking forward to being able to clean a little bit of the house each day and keep it tidy. To really finishing organizing that craft room, a bit at a time. To exploring ways to make money with the things I make (not a living, maybe, but something).
I am NOT looking forward to fielding calls from work asking me to do odds and ends of the job that I left because it was too overwhelming. How is that a break and resting?
So. Friday. A whole day. What will I start? What will I get done? I had better go start my list, because I am looking forward to it!